mission: to get my life back on track

I am having one of those "awake at 3am" moments. Ever since I read about it in Emily's Quest, I've been thinking what they feel like. Let me tell you, not good.

Here is why I am having one of those moments. Senior year is the worst year because procrastination becomes like a sickness. I thought I was able to fight it off junior year and I was sort of handling it this year. But it has become worse as spring break has gone by. Why? Because I know I got into the college I want and I do not care much of high school except to get decent grades (hello to STRAIGHT C's!) and get my diploma. No I won't get straight C's, I have too much pride, but I am going down that ugly road. I could not go to sleep because of anxiety over my ap literature homework, spring break is over, I need to face my troubles, I am graduating, I am thinking about how graduation day will be, my senior project is a mess, etc.

So TO SOLVE THIS, time for a list.

things need to be done by end of this month:

1. senior project needs to be DONE?!!?!?!?!? 3 weeks to get a book or something.
2. suck up and start doing homework for my classes on time.
3. take lots of photos for photo1 and my book.
4. turn in stuff for ucsd (fasfa verification forms before may1st)
5. cram for aps; start to CARE again
6. get a senior ball dress
7. pay dues for sober grad night, yearbook, etc.
   

I may need to add more to this list.

I hope I will get motivation for life again. And get over my anxiety.

I did some portraits for photo1 and they came out interesting. I've been watching lots of movies over spring break and I will do post about them later.

---christina.