its not me, its you.

I just watched the cutest movie ever! PENELOPE! It was a good movie. Not the most amazing but I did like it a lot. I love movies that have a whimsical air and the colors are amazing in the movie. I wish I could find more pictures of Penelope's clothing because the way they dressed her was so unique and cute. Christina Ricci is so pretty in this movie, even with the pig nose. I actually liked her with her pig nose better. James Mcavoy is of course a cutie in this movie. You can never hate him in any movie.




The other day I watched HSM 3 with my sisters. I liked it. It was not too much, although I could definitely feel if there was a song coming on but I think they did it very well. It was a nice ending to the trilogy (hopefully it is the END!). It also makes me think of the end of my senior year, which is surreal. I mean I can barely handle trying to find a date for senior ball, how can I handle the end of senior year? Barely, cannot. :(. I liked how they dressed Vanessa Ann Hudges very simply. Here are my favorite songs from the movie:

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05 Just Wanna Be With You_30 - High School Musical Cast

---christina

love me after 12 am

"Reality has become so intolerable,

she said, so bleak, that all I can paint now
are the colors of my dreams."

--Reading Lolita in Tehran

For AP English Comp & Lit, I am reading Reading Lolita in Tehran for my non-fiction outside reading. I am not much of a non-fiction fan but the books we read in AP ENG are pretty much all non-fiction. However, this book is very inspiring and interesting to me. It is writing about the time when Iran was under the Islamic Republic and there were a lot of religious codes to be followed (still happens today). Women were forced to be covered up and to hide their hair. Everyone lived in this totalitarian society. To me, coming from a democratic society and government, this is very astounding. Everyone is dictated on how they are to live day by day, especially women. Women have the worst because they aren't even allowed to be seen with other men if they are not relatives or their husbands. People are able to be stoned in this society. However this book is not much to criticize the soceity (thought you can kind of sense the author's attitude toward this society) but it tells the real story of a woman (college professor) who takes a couple of her female students and they talk bout books. This may seem nothing out of the ordinary but of course it is a totalitarian religious society and many books are banned from being read (especially WESTERN books) like Jane Austen.


FAVORITE QUOTES FROM BOOK (i keep marking pages because i think some of the text is just amazing and inspirational:

" Before the revolution, she could in a sense take pride in her isolation. At the time, she had worn the scarf as a testament to her faith. her decision was a voluntary act. When the revolution [when Islamic Republic took over] forced the scarf on others, her action became meaningless. "

"Throughout, from start to finish, I observe that they have no clear image of themselves; they can only see and shape themselves through other people's eyes--- ironically, the very people they despise. I have underlined love yourself, self-confidence."

For the first time in my life, I am actually reading a book slowly. I usually go through a book in like three or four hours but I've learned to look for more in reading than just finishing and being satisfied. I want to decode the meaning and the theme the author is trying to come across. Yeah, AP ENG is just making me much more of a big nerd. I am only like on page 40, so yeah READ THE BOOK IT IS GOOD!

More music:
To talk about "LOVE ME AFTER 12 AM" by m-flo featuring alex. OMG I LOVE ALEX from CLAZZIQUAI more and more every day. I notice he has been coming out on a lot of Korean variety shows now. Too bad he shines more than m-flo in the song. This is a very cute song. I love any song featured by Alex. The ALEX & JISUN combination last year on their little single was fantastic. I am not sure if it was last year, it made me 2006. But yeah, they made an awesome duet.

So yeah I know why Feist deserves a Grammy haha. She's different but likable. She's like the happy boppy feeling when you eat a lollipop. Haha I am trying to find the right description.

New ANDY. SOLO ANDY. Yeah this is very Shinhwa style but it sounds better because it is just ANDY! I am impressed, that he actually can hold his own to Minwoo. I really like this song because it is so catchy.

and about my day.
So I am thinking of trying for spring musical at school and I went to the workshop with Michelle today. OMG I felt so out of place. I felt like such a nerdy little ASIAN GIRL because Michelle and I and Trisha (well she is in theater so MINUS HER) were the only Asians in there. I NEVER FEEL THAT NERDY. I never really care about that kind of stuff but it kind of ticked me off when everyone was like are you guys twins when they came up to Michelle and I. I was like NOOOO!! I felt that cliquey aura and could feel the stereotypes being labeled on my head. BUT maybe it was just my imagination. Yes I am not much of a theater type or part of that crowd BUT I LOVE MUSICALS and I do like to sing. I was horribly intimidated by the choir singers and the theatrical people in that workshop though. I have no idea how I am going to go through with this but I WILL BE BRAAAAAAAVVVEEEE. I should have just gone out for tech crew. GAWWWWD. I hate singing high notes though and most of the girls' parts were pretty high. I can sing in harmony with others but by myself I WOULD CRACK. I don't want to audition. AUGH. WELL I WILL STICK TO IT AND BE BRAVE AND BE DARING! I WANT TO HAVE FUN and do all those high school things you wish you could have done but never was brave enough to do. YES

Tomorrow I have ACADEMIC DECATHLON. GAWD I really am a nerd but no worries, our team always is the biggest (and coolest) looking group and we always like get like 10th place. HAHA. Our teacher (MOWRER!) is so chill about it and he doesn't really care about winning. We do kind of but not really. I spent more time thinking about what I was going to wear than what my three minute speech should be about. I really love doing the interview part because I love talking to older people and sounding smart and not feeling stupid because I sound smart. When you talk smart to people your own age, they kind of think you are obnoxious or a nerd. Yeah so you just try to dumb yourself down. Sad to say it is true. But of course I never really can do that all the way. I am just too dominant of a speaker to dumb myself down. BUT WHY SHOULD YOU ACT STUPID ANYWAYS?

"IMITATION IS SUICIDE"
-EMERSON

Don't follow others, live the life you want.

---EMPRESS
CK
[ RULER OF FREE WORLD ]

there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere"

I was watching something on tv and the song "way back into love" came on and I remembered how much I loved that song. When my sister and I watched Music and Lyrics, we obsessively always went back to the part where Drew Barrymore and Hugh Grant were recording the "way back into love" song. I remember the last time I went to karaoke at ru-ru-la-la, Tiffany and I sang that song, it was fun.

"I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere"

I love the lyrics for this song. This song is just one of those songs where I was so obsessed, I sang it for days on end. Just like the song from HSM, what ive been looking for. i like the version where sharpay and ryan sing it best. that is the only scene i like to watch out of the whole movie. I think I am just a musical freak. So that is why I really should try out for the musical at school.

"I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for"

so more cute dresses?

So the yellow one is the one that Melanie liked and I like the one on the right. Seems like strapless is very in but I dont think I have the right shoulders to show it off. Dress shopping is freaking annoying. I'll just wear a really cool shirt and jeans? I'm sure my date will be chill about it. HAHA. :D

cool shoes that rock my socks.

So New Balance is creating a new line of kids' shoes with collaborating with Sesame Street. I think little kid shoes are the cutest and I always want to steal the little displays of kid shoes. It is amazing to see how tiny feet fit into such tiny shoes. When I see little kids who are like 2 years old, I think they look like mini-people. It is odd. I haven't been around toddlers in a LOOONG time and now one is coming in mi familia very soon. Scary. Tiny feet. Tiny hands. Tiny EVERYTHING.

Marc Jacobs and Cancer Awareness

So Marc Jacobs is making a bunch of t-shirts with naked celebrities on it to support cancer awareness cause. I mean good job to Marc Jacobs and helping the cause but I am kind of sick of celebrity philanthropy. Maybe I am just being pessimistic but I get sick of how some celebrities are awesomely praised by the "good works" they do. What about the people who are not famous but do equal and even more things to help others?

But I mean what can I say when I don't even do much for my community. I read about those kids who do things and start things and it makes me want to be one of them. I want to help out, not for myself but for others. But it is really hard to think HOW? HOW CAN I HELP? One step at a time I suppose. So that is why I am going to try and improve as a student mentor in our school's student mentoring program. This is the first year that us Link Crew kids are being mentors and it is really frustrating because a lot of us think it is unfair to us and the freshman we mentor. For one, we had to sacrifice our lunch every other week and so we are basically cranky without food. Then we barely have much to talk about except grades and that is not a way to connect with our freshman. It is really hard to connect with my freshman. I tried but I think I have started to give up and I am disappointed in myself. I want to be someone they can turn to and I want to be soemone they can see as a person they can easily say "hi" and I can say that I HAVE NOT been that person. I can say that instead of blaming myself, I have blamed the program and the people in it for the lack of enthusiasm I have felt. But after today's meeting with the counselors and other mentors, I think I have re-thought my purpose as a mentor. Hopefully by the end of the year, I will have helped these freshman just a little to realize that they do have a good future ahead of them and to take advantage while they can of their youth and their resources and help them survive a little bit better because of their WISE MENTOR :D

---CHRISTINA
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foshiiizzz.